This concludes the discussion of a past life vision I had.  To avoid reading the plot twist first, start down three posts at #1…

So here’s the part that shocked me recently. A couple months after this vision, I was retelling the exciting tale to a friend — and in a flash, I suddenly realized something astonishing. The holy man’s choice, which I so admired as “doing the right thing” and felt was impressive because it involved such a personal sacrifice — was completely selfish and wrong.  

My mouth dropped open and my stomach rolled. I saw everything from a completely different angle. He/I had simply taken the easy way out of a big conflict.  The holy man threw the sacred things into the sea.  He threw away the things he was supposed to guard with his life and walked away from it all. 

Yes, he had to live alone for the next 20 years, sacrificing time with family and friends, missing seeing his daughter grow up.  But that was apparently easier to him than challenging his abusive younger brother’s attempt to take over both the village and the sacred things.  He/I was the elder and should have stepped into the role of leader after the death of our father and eldest brother.  I had more of a right to lead the village, but he was bigger, angrier, nastier, and more willful.  This past me won one battle, kept the sacred things undefiled by dropping them in the sea, but he lost everything else.  He also in a sense betrayed the entire village, and then left them to live with his brother!

Yet even now, I can see him/me, so vividly, at the end of his life.  He looks up and sees the small tent of animal skins and sticks that make the roof of his snow shelter.  He lies very comfortably in a pocket bed carved in the snow.  His deathbed, and I can hear his death rattle.  

How did we connect in meditation?  Was he calling to me from there?  Was he telling me not to make the same mistake in this lifetime?  Was he telling me to stand up for my own power and fight?

I am so grateful for these multiple profound insights, and the experience itself.  I loved how the whole thing unwound like an epic movie, too.  How many meditations did that holy man in the wilderness have to do to get this message to me now?  Thank you, thank you.

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Hi!  I’m continuing to contemplate a vivid past-life vision I had in meditation a few months ago…

Now, a fascinating thing about this vision is that the cantankerous village leader I saw (my younger brother) was someone in my life right now with whom I also don’t get along well. For several weeks after the vision, I thought about this. In that long-ago village as brothers our relationship clearly was, and is now, a power struggle. Who would win?  He wanted what he wanted, to take over the village. But that interfered with me being true to myself and doing what I knew I had to do — my sacred duty, passed down from father to son, to keep the village’s sacred things. To be true to my being and my life mission, I couldn’t give in to him.  I couldn’t give him the sacred things because I felt he would unfairly use them to manipulate the village and he’d desecrate them to boot. (And have I mentioned I was so proud of that “me” for standing up for my sacred duty and not giving in!)

This made me realize in many ways how important it is for me to stand up for me and my life mission now, to truly be me, express me, allow my light to shine.  It gave me insight into a thread in my current relationship that I hadn’t seen before.

I am so grateful for this vision for allowing me to see that anew.  Seeing it played out so vividly totally kicked me into high gear.  I can see now how I’ve been sabotaging my success to date — just a little success was OK, but I haven’t wanted to stick my neck out too far and offend this person… Well, I’m back, and this expanding blog is just one part of my emergence. I’m glad you’re sharing this experience with me.  

How about you?  Are you hiding your light?  Are you allowing life circumstances to interfere with successfully doing what you were born to do?  Are you ready to emerge?

When you live your light, you live in divine love and you can’t help but be successful.  Life flows.  We all have that divine light within us, waiting for our individual expression.  Go for it.  Let it out.  You are a perfect being, loved and valued for your uniqueness.  Please share it with us!

Next time, I promise to share the shocking twist and conclude this story.

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So I’m continuing to talk about a vivid past-life meditation I had…  

Here is the main story: “I”/he, the main character is a Keeper of the Sacred Things in an east Russia-ish village a couple hundred years ago.  He made a major choice to protect the sacred things of our village from his power-hungry younger brother — a difficult choice that got him kicked out of his village by said brother for the rest of his life, leaving his daughter behind.  He lived and died alone in the wilderness.

After experiencing this meditative vision, I was immediately so impressed with this strong choice.  I admired him for making it.  I’m not sure I’d have the wherewithal to do anything like that in my current life.  Heck, I bragged to friends about how well he honored his sacred duty.  I mean wow, to protect the sacred things in a power crisis, he sacrificed everything his heart held dear: his village, family and friends, his life purpose (protect and care for the sacred things–no more of that), and even the sacred things themselves.  

Oh, yes, perhaps I should mention that in a beautiful and respectful ceremony he put them where nobody would ever reach them again, quite to the shock and dismay of the villagers.  This was technically what got him banned on the spot when they returned.  He had to turn and walk out of the village with nothing.  But he did this to keep his brother from getting the sacred things and misusing them as he manipulated and took over the village.

Yes, quite a coup, I thought.  He triumphed!  He saved the sacred things from defilement and being used to hurt others.  Yay!

But I was mistaken, quite mistaken. More tomorrow.

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Do you believe in past lives? Since I was a kid I’ve been drawn to the idea, but my scientific mindset would not accept the possibility.  Even though a few situations in my 9-year healing practice have made me wonder about past lives too, I put the idea of reincarnation in my “I’m Not Sure” basket.  It has been there for a long, long time.  To anyone who talked about past lives, my challenge was this: “So what? Why does it matter? How does it help you now?”

Well, I have answered that question for myself.

Secretly, I’ll admit, I loved the idea of reincarnation.  Everyone gets as many chances as they need.  Everyone is equally valuable and nobody is “chosen” over anyone else.  There is always hope and love for what is, exactly as it is.  You just can’t go “wrong”, because when you fail you learn and you get to try again.

So last year, for the sake of curiosity, I did a past life regression meditation with a dear friend and colleague.  When we are together, our energy abilities and psychic “talents” dramatically increase, which can be fun.  In this unexpectedly vivid meditation, I saw, like a movie complete with a plot twist at the end, the life of a man (me) who had lived as a sort of Keeper of Sacred Things for a small village in eastern Russia.  I saw unique clothing, culture, boats, tents and other things I’d never seen before.

At one point, the meditation asked us to learn who in this vision was also in our current lives, and I saw a few people that overlapped.  Thinking about it afterwards, pondering the similarities between someone’s character in that life and this one, was very instructive.  I had a massive “A-HA” moment with one person that really helped me nail down an issue in our relationship.  It helped me name something I couldn’t put my finger on until now, helped me see it from a completely different angle, and immediately start to let it go.  It was extremely valuable for my healing.

So that’s how past lives help now!  Whether you believe they are real or something like a representational waking dream or meditative vision, they can shed light on our current struggles and help us solve them.

This story also has a plot twist, which I will continue in the next post…

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